I Cried About You Tonight

I Cried About You Tonight 

William Lynn

I cried about You tonight…..

It’s been a while since I’ve done that.

You see since I lost you I’ve been sad, depressed, and I’ve talked about it non-stop but I haven’t done this.

I cried about You tonight…..

I’ve shed a tear or two here and there

I’ve cried over You countless times

But for the first time in a while,

I cried about You tonight…..

You were the first person that ever made me feel this way.

You did it in such a unique but commonly You way that I am incapable of escaping it.

I cried about You tonight…..

When I thought about my future, the simple thought of You not being in it tortured me. And

I cried about You tonight…..

I could’ve cried about the kids I want but don’t have, the future I want but haven’t reached, the friendships I’ve lost, but no

I cried about You tonight…..

I pictured the life I wanted where I could live my wife and my family but I realized that it seems contingent on You being next to me. 

I cried about You tonight…..

Love

Love 

William Lynn

It’s impossible not to love You,

I try everyday not to.

Then You smile at me,

You brush Your hair back like You do

And then without warning, You laugh that unforgettable laugh too,

And I’m unsure what it is I see.

Did God really put an Angel on Earth just for me? 

Or did Satan assign a demon to me that forces my being to fall apart every time I remember that we will never be?

I call this work love, because nothing in the universe to me is more complex and deep than the feelings I feel for You, and giving this a more complicated title would make me feel like a fool.

I wondered what it would feel like to love as I grew,

I asked questions and was asked a simple question in return

Which comes first thoughts or feelings? I was unsure how to answer however that question began burn.
I learned that when I know the answer 

I’ll know if I’m in love.

By God do I know now

that there is no correct answer.

The simple being of Your smile has given me hope and torture.

It brings me comfort and anxiety;

But most of all You chiseled it into my absent minded memory from above.

I loved You so hard that I will never know how to truly feel this vulnerable to another person ever again.

In fact the sad part of it is that I try to but I’m forced to pretend.

Now I’m unsure what the future holds for the two of us

The path can be long and confusing;

But if the roads I’m traveling end with You, then it must be true that it’s

It’s impossible for me not to love You

Because it was always inevitable

That I would fall in love with You.